This morning, I had no desire to exercise. I had to force myself to get started...I literally said "I don't want to do this" But, this may be a bad confession...but I really wanted wine tonight. So, the first 2 minutes were rough...but then I got into it. And I just kept going..and going...till I got all 5 in. More than I have ever done before. ever.
But the best part about today, was that I (with very cautious optimism) am feeling better...you know, like normal. There may be hope yet. The only thing that keep resonating in my mind is...doubt. I remember reading the passage of RLAM where Dimity was traveling to the marathon she trained for (mainly on the bike) and the feeling of doubt creeps in. I am there. Is the training I am doing actually equivilent to what I should be doing? So I am thinking, because I haven't really been released for the training needed for this is to embrace a training method they mention in the book, which is close to the one I have been following, but it is a run/walk program. That way I am training for the right distance still, but still listening to the docs.
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